``I guess my children have grown up and now have the time to look back on their lives...I don't want things to go on like this.''Yoshie Okawa, 52 years old, full-time housewife. - A family of four: eldest son (23), eldest daughter (21), and husband (56). - Sachie, who had been too shy to even hold hands with the man she liked since her school days, married her husband through an arranged marriage arrangement recommended by her parents, as a virgin. - ``My husband is just as serious as I am, so in that sense, I guess it wasn't hard to be with him.'' It seems that she and her husband still work together once a week. - There seems to be little to ask of anyone. - "It's not that I don't feel good with my husband. It's just that it doesn't feel particularly good...I've always had the suspicion that there must be sex that feels even better somewhere in this world (lol)" Now, the late-blooming wife's second partner. - You will have lots of fun having sex with another person for the first time!